Saturday, October 30, 2004

antaragini

Sometimes u feel u know the right from the wrong and yet words are splashed on ur face as if u r the single most deserving moron on the face of this earth! What do u do? U r simply pissed off. What makes me more angry is the thing that there will be some guy who will become the ``voice of reason" and try to tell u what you should be doing. ``Do the right thing Awi, this is not how u r supposed to behave".
I am of the belief that everybody , and I really really mean everybody is very much aware of the ``right things to do in life". We know one should not steal , but we do; we know that rape, but we do; we know we should not do this or that but we do. However not everybody does the same things. There is a reason and the reason is a simple one if u listen to me. Although everybody knows what the right thing to do is; they donot do it because they don't want to. To put it differently they choose not to do it. Evidently something else becomes more important to them than what is right. I donot know of a more simple reason than this to explain why ppl do what they do. And simplicity for me is the defining goal. We all want to make our lives simple. I have always maintained that we do something because it gives us pleasure. No, no. I have a better way to say the same thing. We do those things which gives us the illusion of avoiding getting hurt. I use the word ``illusion" since we cannot simply avoid getting hurt. Can we? No sir , we cannot avoid that. So what should be do? I am afraid that is quite a meaningless question. Though there are seemingly many answers to this question. None of them is right I am afraid.
I really donot know what is right from wrong. But I believe that one needs to believe that he knows so, otherwise it becomes difficult to live. Does it not? As DM says no can really teach u something, u gotta learn it for urself. And even though I know this and a lot of other things, I still cannot avoid getting hurt. And as I have told u earlier we do things which gives us the illusion of getting hurt. For me emotions are more important than intelligence. However intelligently used emotions, have a moving power that has me in its grasp. The written words in the literature and the spoken words in the movies just make so much sense to me, that to find sense in my own theories or beliefs I always get down to writing. Just as I debate with enlightened minds to better understand the basis of my beliefs, I also write to find clarity of thought and vision. I also look for appreciation and respect just like the kind I have for those who have shaped my world of beliefs thru their words and Ideas.
In the end a simple prescription to stay away from pain is to stop thinking at all. Keep urself so busy and occupied that no moment is wasted in thinking business. I feel all human minds should be labeled with the statutory warning: thinking is bad for health. But just like the smokers , I know I will keep doing it.

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