dussera and pujo

vacations started today at iitk. almost all the junta has left the campus and its simply impossible to find any bengali on campus. untill and unless u have lived at kolkata during pujo u will most probably not understand the fervour and frenzy surrounding the madness that is pujor bajaar.

i have no friends now except my trusty computer and my internet account. don't know what i will do without it. the pirated movies and videos that get downloaded by the download gurus on iitk has served the great need of a friend many a times. so its ok by all standards.

love and friendship

almost throughout my post-adoloscent life i have believed and preached that the best way to enjoy and long long relationship is to have her as your best friend. we have been together since the last 7 years and we never get bored of each other and we talk and talk endlessly. we do enjoy each others company. since 2003 however we are not living in the same city and although we have seen very less of each other. harly a day has gone by when we did not speak to each other. a rather strange thought has crossed my mind and i was caught unawares. i now seem to believe that love and friendship perhaps are two different things altogether. i still will not be able to define love, not many can i think. love is to be experienced, it cannot be defined. and its quite possible to not be in love and yet believe that one is.

i am really troubled over the thought of whether i have experienced love at all. its perplexing. the trouble is i would never know nor do i know if there is a way to find out. to all intents and purposes i am in love and the world knows it. i never would have questioned it however since the thought crossed my mind i am wondering whether it is friendship or love. perhaps i am bored with life and want that excitement that loves brings with it when you first fall in love. god knows. not that its the end of the world for me, its just that i am rather puzzled over this little mystery.

time will tell i guess.....